Exercise

I haven't been exercising, like at all. It's been so hot, I don't feel like riding my bike or going for a while. I know I need to, I'm so lazy. I suck.

Sad

One of the biggest reasons I'm getting weight loss surgery is so that I can have another baby. At this weight my body can't do it right now. I know that waiting and trying in about a year from now is the best for both me and future baby, but I'm so sad about waiting. I'm constantly surrounded by pregnant woman and I want to burst into tears.
I want another baby so bad. I want crazy to have a sibling, preferably before he starts school. I know I'm young and have a while to have children, but it still hurts. I'm a mother, I've know that was my role in life for a very long time, and I don't feel whole yet.