2 Weeks

2 weeks ago, I lost my baby.

On Saturday April 13th, I was 10 weeks 5 days and I learned that the baby was measuring a week behind and had no heartbeat (this I after we had already seen it once). I decided on a D&C but my body couldn't hold on and I had to go to the emergency room Sunday at 3 am. Around 8 am I was being told I could have the procedure some time soon but it wasn't an emergency. Well about 5 minutes later I blacked out and they rushed me into the operating room. 6 hours later I wake up in recovery. Apparently I lost to much blood, they tried 3 times but they couldn't stop it so I had to have another surgery as well.  I had to be given 9 pints of blood and many other fluids.

I felt physically tired and week for about a week, but am feeling better now.  Emotionally, it was rough, but after talking to a friend (she has had both a miscarriage and a D & C) and I've been to church, I'm feeling a bit better.

Why me?

I lost the baby. I was in serious condition, in the hospital for 3 days. It's not fair, I wanted my baby so bad. When will this stop hurting?

Well I've got some news...

My lap band baby due Nov. 4th!