And my date is....

October 4th!

It's later than I had hoped but it will be worth the weight ( hehe, get it?). I still have to lose about 9 pounds before the surgery. I'm going to start aqua aerobics in September but before then I should get on my bike more or go for walks. It is just so humid and gross here!

I made a ticker, as a countdown to my surgery thing, but can't figure out how to put it on here. I really suck at this blogging thing.

Surgeon Appointment Tomorrow

I have an appointment tomorrow with Dr. Ahmad. I'm super nervous but also kind of excited that I could finally have a surgery date tomorrow.

Also I've been trying to do some exercise everyday. I've mowed the lawn and gone on bike rides, I hope that this along with different eating helps me to lose a bit of weight.

Exercise

I haven't been exercising, like at all. It's been so hot, I don't feel like riding my bike or going for a while. I know I need to, I'm so lazy. I suck.

Sad

One of the biggest reasons I'm getting weight loss surgery is so that I can have another baby. At this weight my body can't do it right now. I know that waiting and trying in about a year from now is the best for both me and future baby, but I'm so sad about waiting. I'm constantly surrounded by pregnant woman and I want to burst into tears.
I want another baby so bad. I want crazy to have a sibling, preferably before he starts school. I know I'm young and have a while to have children, but it still hurts. I'm a mother, I've know that was my role in life for a very long time, and I don't feel whole yet.

Vacation Pictures

My friend Jo took a lot of pictures of me while on vacation, and I hate all of them! I look terrible, it's just disgusting.  Here are a few:

 

I'm ready to not look like this anymore. One of Hubby's cousins had gastric bypass done in March and she is doing amazing! She even gave me a bunch of clothes. We talked about the surgery and now I'm even more excited for surgery. September can't come fast enough!

Back from vacation!

I'm back from vacation, we spent a month in the Isle of Man with the in-laws, we also spent a few days in England.

We just got back last night and this morning I had another nutritionist appointment. I call that dedication :) For my insurance I need to get weighed in every calendar month (for 6 months) so I needed to get there in the month of June and didn't wanted to risk not getting there before by Friday.

Good news is, I lost weight. Perhaps staying on the 3 floor of a building with no elevator the first 2 weeks of our vacation had something to do with it. I also think I wasn't snacking as much also.

My plan from now on, until my 3 week post op diet starts, is to have a shake in the morning, a salad with protein, fruit for snacks and a low carb dinner. I'm looking at a early Sept. surgery date, that is about 10 weeks away.

Nutritionist II

Another appointment with the nutritionist. I gained weight, I have skills like that. She thought maybe it's because last time it was warm and I was wearing a dress, but today it's cold so I was wearing pants and a sweater. Who knows.

I have another appointment before I leave for vacation, hopefully that will help me make good choices during the trip.

Weight last time: 318 lbs
Today's weight: 321 lbs