Things I can't wait to say!

"Want to feel my port?"

"Why yes, I have lost weight!"

"Yeah, I do look good, thanks!"

"I'm full."

"I need to get to the gym."

"I've lost X pounds!"

Getting down to business

We were in Philly for a few days, and I was sick as a dog, so that cut down on my snacking. And we did a bit more walking then normal.

Now that we are home, I went for a 1.5 mile walk yesterday and today we headed to the pool. While hubby took care of baby boy, I did some of my aqua aerobics moves. It starts up again at the beginning of Sept. and I'm super excited. This is the one activity that I have never dreaded, and actually look forward to. I hope with losing weight, I will pick up more activities that I enjoy as much. I would love to try zumba and spinning.

I have to lose 10 lbs by my surgery date, I have an appointment at the beginning of  the month, not sure what for. I hate the scale there, it doesn't seem to budge. I seem to be at least a pound heavier there than at home.

And my date is....

October 4th!

It's later than I had hoped but it will be worth the weight ( hehe, get it?). I still have to lose about 9 pounds before the surgery. I'm going to start aqua aerobics in September but before then I should get on my bike more or go for walks. It is just so humid and gross here!

I made a ticker, as a countdown to my surgery thing, but can't figure out how to put it on here. I really suck at this blogging thing.

Surgeon Appointment Tomorrow

I have an appointment tomorrow with Dr. Ahmad. I'm super nervous but also kind of excited that I could finally have a surgery date tomorrow.

Also I've been trying to do some exercise everyday. I've mowed the lawn and gone on bike rides, I hope that this along with different eating helps me to lose a bit of weight.

Exercise

I haven't been exercising, like at all. It's been so hot, I don't feel like riding my bike or going for a while. I know I need to, I'm so lazy. I suck.

Sad

One of the biggest reasons I'm getting weight loss surgery is so that I can have another baby. At this weight my body can't do it right now. I know that waiting and trying in about a year from now is the best for both me and future baby, but I'm so sad about waiting. I'm constantly surrounded by pregnant woman and I want to burst into tears.
I want another baby so bad. I want crazy to have a sibling, preferably before he starts school. I know I'm young and have a while to have children, but it still hurts. I'm a mother, I've know that was my role in life for a very long time, and I don't feel whole yet.

Vacation Pictures

My friend Jo took a lot of pictures of me while on vacation, and I hate all of them! I look terrible, it's just disgusting.  Here are a few:

 

I'm ready to not look like this anymore. One of Hubby's cousins had gastric bypass done in March and she is doing amazing! She even gave me a bunch of clothes. We talked about the surgery and now I'm even more excited for surgery. September can't come fast enough!